Lately?  Every day is a day of new learning.  Learning to love beyond my own definition of it.  Resting deeper and deeper in Jesus, even as life never stops long enough for me to come to a somewhat satisfying understanding of other people.  Or even myself.  God is a strong and steady rock in the storms of life and shifting shadows of this world, is He not?  Learning to hold on to Him, because other people - even a friend, close friend, sibling, or parent - can't take His place in giving you everything you need.  In giving you desires that line up with God's perfect ones, and putting your in-perfect desires to a perfect (in His book ;-) end.

I'm finding sweet rest in knowing God is beautifully orchestrating my life right now, even though it doesn't always feel that way.  In gaining strength (even though weak physically and mentally a lot of the time) through seeing the needs of others and ignoring my own.  Loving the unloved, and yes, those that are just hard to love.

I'm also learning to find joy in the oddest of places and ways.  But trying to find joy no matter what.  Learning to praise and serve when I'm feeling selfish.  Praying for the people that have been put on my heart, singing a song of worship, writing down yet another gift from The Giver that I'm thankful for, writing someone a note.  When I get away from these things (often, sadly), I begin to crawl back into my old self... My selfishness, self-dependence, pride.

But still?  In all this.

All the way my Saviour leads me.  And that's what really matters.